Monday, June 21, 2010

Kicking Butt!!

We have almost done it. We have an estimated 17ish days left and we have offically kicked this deployments butt!!

As I sit here and think at all that went into this deployment it makes me wonder where the past 11 months have gone..Sydnie and I have moved across the country [TWICE], we have packed and unpacked..arranged and rearranged..Sydnie got to know her grandparents aunt and uncle, cousins and anyone else who is important in our lives..all that is left is watching our hero walk into that gym and be returned to us!!

This isnt our first go around with deployment and last deployment it was sink or swim. I went from living at home to live 2500 miles away from everyone I know..having to be the cable guy, repair man, chef, and housekeeper all in the matter of days. And let me tell you it was a HUGE change to the life I had at home. But i also learned a lot about myself..and I taught myself to do things I never thought I would have to do. And because of it I feel like I am a stronger person. I made it!! This deployment however has been full of all new challenges. But the hardest thing of all was being with Sydnie and watching her grow and learn new things alone. Ok so I was with family and I am Thankful that she got to

Friday, January 29, 2010

Dear Civilan Girl!

Dear Civilian Girl,

Sometimes I Truly Hate All Of You!!
You Think You Know, Trust Me, You Don't Know The Half!
You Say I Understand, Do You Really? You Say To Just Stick It Out And
That It's Okay, How Can You Say That When You Have No
Idea How Much This Is Killing Me?
You Sometimes Say The Most Insensitive Things Around Me, That To
You And Your Other Friends Seem Okay,But To Me It Is Some Stupid Comment,
That You Need Not Say.

-You Complain That Your Man Worked Late One Night, And You Didn't Get
To See Him.
----My Man Works Late All The Time, I Am Happy For The Times I Do See Him.

-You Complain That Your Man Hasn't Called You.
---I Live For Those 5 Minute Phone Calls, Right Out Of The Blue.

-You Complain About Having To Hang Up The Phone, That An Hour Was Not Enough To Talk, And You Don't Want To Wait Till Tomorrow.
---I Cry Every Time We Cut It Short, And I Never Know When I Will Talk To
Him Again.

-You Complain That He Went Away For A Weekend Vaction And Did Not Take
You Along With Him.
---I Won't See Mine For Another 10 Months.

-You Complain That You Miss Your Man, He Left 2 Hours Ago.
---I Have No Heart, Because My Man Took It, When He Left
Two Months Ago.

-You Shake Off Love Making.
----I Stay Up All Night, Because I Do Not Know When We Will
Make Love Again.

-You Complain That You Did Not Have Sex One Night Of The Week.
---I'm Off Sex For A Whole Year!

-You Complain That You Have To Share Your Man With
His Friends.
---I Have To Share Mine With The Government.

-You Complain That Your Man Practices Too Much For A Game.
---I Worry Because My Man Is In The Field
Practicing How To Survive And Kill.

-You Complain That Your Man Does Not Take Enough Time Of
The Day Out For You.
---I Am Greatful For The Time Of Day I get.

-You Complain That You Missed His Call, And You Will Have To
Call Him Back When You're Not As Busy.
----I Cry My Eyes Out When I Miss A Call Because It Might
Have Been The Only One I Get For Awhile.

-You Save One Cute Text Message From Him.
----I Save Every Last One, So I Can Reread Them, And Never Forget.

-You Complain That You Have To Transfer Schools To Be With Him.
---I Move To Other Countries For Mine.

-You Have Every Part Of Your Man Memorized.
----I Stare At Pictures So I Will Not Forget What He Looks Like.

-You Say You Miss Your Man??
---You Can't Even Begin To Feel My Pain!

-You Take The Time You Have With Your Man For Granted!
----I Would Never.

You Say Your Man Is The Best, He Does It All. Does Your Man Sleep AloneWith Bombs
Dropping Around Him? Does He Fight For A Whole Nations Freedom?
Does He Leave His Loved Ones Behind With No Other Choice?
I Didn't Think So!!
You Say Your Man Has Such A Hard Job,He Is So Worn Out And He Is Grouchy.
Does He Get Up At 5 AM To Run 10 Miles, Then Work A Full Day??
I Didn't Think So!
Mine Does, And He Still Manages To Give Me A Smile When I See Him AFTER
All Of The Mess He Had That Day.

Why Do You Assume That You Have ANYTHING,
What So Ever On Me? You Don't!!
You Might Have It Hard, I Have It Harder.
You Don't Know Anything Yet.

If You're Married to a Military Man, Raise Your Glasses,
If Not....
Raise Your Standards.!!

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Moving Home.

Ok so we are halfway through our second deployment and this time we did things different then last time. This time I packed our house put it in storage and moved home. And I'll admit it has it fair share of plus' like always having someone to watch Sydnie when I just want sometime for me and being able to get a huge head start on our savings account. But even though the good out weigh the bad most days some days all I think about it How badly I want my own house back! Like when I want to slam a door or turn the music up so loud I cant hear myself think or like when Sydnie has EVERY one of her toys out and I am exhausted and dont feel like picking them up. I also like that Sydnie has gotten to know her grandparents and cousin and uncle and anyone else who is important to her daddy and me.
But now that we have started the planning of our upcoming move home I have started freaking out a little bit. I am excited to get to pick out a new house for my family and I am looking forward to getting to get everything ready for the homecoming of our Hero, but all the normal what if's and can we's come to mind. Like What if we pick somewhere and end up hating it? Can we really afford that? It is hard to set up a budget when you have no idea what your budget is going to be. And what how will we know what house is right for us?? I want to find something that can be our home until the day we get orders sending us to our next duty station, I am tried of having a new address every year. And I am really tired of packing and unpacking! Once again I will be doing all the unloading and unpacking of our belongings ALONE. I am tired just thinking about all the work that is going to be.
And then there is the Road Trip home! I hate being in the car for more then an hour..let alone atleast 2 days with a toddler, 2 cats and a dog! Talk about wanting to pull your hair out. And who is going to help and how far can we drive before stopping and how much is gas going to cost? That opens another million question book that frankly I hate opening.
I wish I could snap my fingers and we are back and everything is all ready and our hero is home! Like I said I wish!
I guess it is all part of the Army Life!

Monday, January 25, 2010


I was on Facebook the other day and one of the ads on the side of the page was for a clothing company that only made Marriage related things. So I checked it out and when reading there mission statement this is what I found. I became instantly willing to look more into buying something from them [which I actually did] just because I agreed 100% with what I read.

This is what it said:
One of the great and wonderful mysteries of life is that loving each other in action--what we do and say--produces romance. Everything in our culture today teaches the opposite, that romance turns into love, but nothing could be further from the truth. Love is a choice and we decide how we're going to treat each other in the good and in the not-so-good times. What a hope-giving reality that a strong, loving, thriving relationship can be built, simply by changing how we interact with our spouse.
Marriage was created to be a blessing and a little kindness, selflessness, and respect goes a long way. Accept the fact that your spouse isn't perfect and then start taking notice of all the good things they bring to the table! Pretty soon you can train your mind to be grateful for who they are as opposed to feeling disappointed about who they are not. When you allow yourself to believe that your spouse rocks, you will free yourself from the downward spiral and temptation of self-pity, disappointment, and even despair. The fact is, your spouse is probably a greater blessing than you allow yourself to lay down your expectations and praise your spouse for his/her attributes. After all, the key is to change yourself! And you'll be surprised at the positive affect it has on the one you choose to love...and you!

I believe every part of that whole heartily. Which I guess is why I am glad I found the person I am supposed to be with at 14. I think being so young came as a blessing to us becuase at 14 and 16 the real relationship we formed was a Friendship, and that friendship is what got us through the bumps in the road. And for that I am greatful.
I knew I loved my husband from the very minute I said it to him and I guess it is a good thing we am so stubborn because that to got us where we are today. Because we honestly never gave up trying to get the other to give them that "2nd" chance.

So now 7 1/2 years later, 2nd deployment, 2 cats, 1 dog and a baby later I look back at how far we actually have come and I thank God that he brought Lee into my life so young. And that we are going to be happily married for a really really long time and get to watch our Beautiful daught grow up and have our grandbabies. And taht we got out of a town that I now know would have probably been the death of a wonderful relationship.

So to my Husband as our 4th Wedding anniversary is right around the corner I love you more then anything and Thank you for being just as stuborrn as I am and never giving up on making this work! You truely are my best friend and soul mate!